EGV
New Daydreamer
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Post by EGV on Sept 30, 2019 2:14:54 GMT
So I'm listening to a pre-recorded animation lesson, and I really enjoy what I'm watching. And my MD actually stops! But my joy gets mixed with withdrawal symptoms; I'm kind of panicking, having my drug taken from me, even if it's in favor of something both productive and enjoyable. And I feel as if I'm losing something valuable, even though it's the opposite!
It's really weird, feeling good and bad at the same time.
Has anyone else experienced this?
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Post by Sam on Sept 30, 2019 3:28:28 GMT
I think so. Honestly I wouldn't be surprised if this were a very common experience. As far as I can tell, MD functions very similarly to addiction, and I think that that's a common addiction withdrawal experience.
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Post by katie on Sept 30, 2019 7:20:35 GMT
So I'm listening to a pre-recorded animation lesson, and I really enjoy what I'm watching. And my MD actually stops! But my joy gets mixed with withdrawal symptoms; I'm kind of panicking, having my drug taken from me, even if it's in favor of something both productive and enjoyable. And I feel as if I'm losing something valuable, even though it's the opposite! It's really weird, feeling good and bad at the same time. Has anyone else experienced this? I don't really panic as much as if madd is in the back of my mind I get uneasy and can not concentrate as much and then they panic starts to kick in if I keep try to resist it. I find that it is hard when you are at that point to do so but this is a bad way of looking at it in a way I am feeding it and I want to know if I can control it in some ways. I don't mind when I am having a good day to relax and give into Madd but I have to learn how to deal with my negative emotions when its there ready to get me away from them for hours at a time and then I come back to reality and there is what I was escaping from in my mind again so in ways madd is bad when we want to run away from our personal problems or issues. Its a strong urge pulling you in to make us panic and uneasy. Here is a link to help us try and fight the addiction side of madd daydreaminblue.freeforums.net/thread/519/project-on-addiction-md |
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Post by bee on Oct 1, 2019 10:41:57 GMT
So I'm listening to a pre-recorded animation lesson, and I really enjoy what I'm watching. And my MD actually stops! But my joy gets mixed with withdrawal symptoms; I'm kind of panicking, having my drug taken from me, even if it's in favor of something both productive and enjoyable. And I feel as if I'm losing something valuable, even though it's the opposite! It's really weird, feeling good and bad at the same time. Has anyone else experienced this? No, I don't get this. Or do I? I have problems concentrating on specific things, I can't watch a whole movie for example. I've never connected this with my dd because my dd works differently but maybe I should think about it, I'm prone to addiction-like behavior in other things. |
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Post by ananya1765 on Oct 13, 2019 15:47:39 GMT
So I'm listening to a pre-recorded animation lesson, and I really enjoy what I'm watching. And my MD actually stops! But my joy gets mixed with withdrawal symptoms; I'm kind of panicking, having my drug taken from me, even if it's in favor of something both productive and enjoyable. And I feel as if I'm losing something valuable, even though it's the opposite! It's really weird, feeling good and bad at the same time. Has anyone else experienced this? No, I don't get this. Or do I? I have problems concentrating on specific things, I can't watch a whole movie for example. I've never connected this with my dd because my dd works differently but maybe I should think about it, I'm prone to addiction-like behavior in other things. Same here. Everytime I try to watch a movie my Md kicks in and i need to pause the movie and start pacing to daydream. A 3 hour movie takes at least 4.5 hours. |
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Post by alvi on Oct 13, 2019 18:39:24 GMT
No, I don't get this. Or do I? I have problems concentrating on specific things, I can't watch a whole movie for example. I've never connected this with my dd because my dd works differently but maybe I should think about it, I'm prone to addiction-like behavior in other things. Same here. Everytime I try to watch a movie my Md kicks in and i need to pause the movie and start pacing to daydream. A 3 hour movie takes at least 4.5 hours. Yup, I don't think I have ever managed to watch a tv show or movie in one hit. It can take me days of stopping and starting things and taking breaks in between to daydream. |
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Post by ananya1765 on Oct 14, 2019 9:27:15 GMT
Same here. Everytime I try to watch a movie my Md kicks in and i need to pause the movie and start pacing to daydream. A 3 hour movie takes at least 4.5 hours. Yup, I don't think I have ever managed to watch a tv show or movie in one hit. It can take me days of stopping and starting things and taking breaks in between to daydream. I wonder how so many people can watch a whole season in 1 sitting. |
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Post by kondiao on Oct 14, 2019 16:03:03 GMT
So I'm listening to a pre-recorded animation lesson, and I really enjoy what I'm watching. And my MD actually stops! But my joy gets mixed with withdrawal symptoms; I'm kind of panicking, having my drug taken from me, even if it's in favor of something both productive and enjoyable. And I feel as if I'm losing something valuable, even though it's the opposite! It's really weird, feeling good and bad at the same time. Has anyone else experienced this? No, I don't get this. Or do I? I have problems concentrating on specific things, I can't watch a whole movie for example. I've never connected this with my dd because my dd works differently but maybe I should think about it, I'm prone to addiction-like behavior in other things. I go through experiences like this. But my trouble is that when I stop the MD for a minute anything can trigger it again. Often it is recent put-downs or insults from people that make me feel bad - rejected, disrespected, ignored, or whatever - and when I start to relax, by watching a movie or doing exercise or reading, that the bad feeling gets expressed by drawing me into DDing - I suppose as a compensation for having been too weak or cowardly or stupid to have handled the situation the way a real hero would have. And then I start mind-tripping on being in a weak situation where I cannot take a stand and do not have anyone to back me up. When I am able to stop DDing for a minute then it seems I often go from there with a resolution to replay that old scene in my head and this time I resolve to NOT go into violence, but the DD takes me away and again. So it is like instead of fighting someone I am simply saying, "You don't talk to me that way," ... and then my antagonist invariably sneers at me and so I get violent inside my head; forced to hurt him or her because that is the only thing that some people understand - and then I am a hopeless failure because I should not have fallen into this state of emotional distress and I should have handled the issue when it happened. If I would learn to deal with people in a manner that showed them that I will not tolerate disrespect then I would not have these failures. And so the cycle goes on and on. |
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