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Post by sona on Oct 7, 2019 10:19:54 GMT
Hi all! I'm 19 years old and a maladaptive daydreamer. Found out MDD was a thing a year ago and it blew my mind. Since then I have searched and read about MDD a lot in order to understand it and to get help. I googled it, watched youtube videos, watched the secret life of Walter Mitty, joined reddit community of MDD. Reddit brought me here to this forum. Ive read people started MDD due to some trauma suffered in life. But this isn't the case with me. I have daydreamed since as long as I can remember. I don't know what started it. I don't know why it started. But it's become a part of my identity. A part of my daily life. I indulge in it daily. This has severly affected my productivity and resulted in low results in exams. It has also contributed in my declining mental health. And ironically daydreaming is what gets me through the low phase in life that I'm in. But I want to stop. I want to know what's it like to be normal. Music is my main trigger which sucks cause I'm a music lover. I pace and jump. I get so ashamed of myself when I get caught doing so. My characters in daydreams are often influenced by books I read or movies I watch. I have never daydreamed about myself. Unlike Walter Mitty who daydreamed about getting himself a girlfriend or adventures, my daydreams have been a different story where I'm not a character. It makes me knowing how much of my life I'm wasting and how un-present I am in life. I don't remember much of my childhood due to MDD. I'm just compulsively dreaming away my life and i hate it but I can't help it. I need a way out. At the same time I'm afraid of letting go of MDD because it would be like losing myself since I've been a maladaptive daydreamer all my life. I hope this forum helps me in this. Sorry for such a long post. But this is just me and I never share this with anyone. Thanks
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Post by katie on Oct 7, 2019 12:25:07 GMT
Hi sona welcome to daydream in blue
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Post by bee on Oct 7, 2019 14:08:19 GMT
Hi sona,
welcome to the forum!
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Post by Sam on Oct 7, 2019 18:18:54 GMT
Welcome to the forum! There are a number of strategies for dealing with your daydreaming on the "help and research" board. Also, I personally am in my daydreams, but there is a thread here where some of the other members talk about not being in their daydreams. We hope to hear more from you and that being a part of this community will help you :)
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WhiteWing
New Daydreamer
Rain and a lot of coffee. Korean/Chill Music <3. Chase Atlantic
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Post by WhiteWing on Oct 7, 2019 20:27:12 GMT
Welcome¡¡¡ >w< YAAAAYYY
I really can relate for what you are saying, It's like reading something I wrote, you are not alone, MDD it's hard, I know that feel of want to change. You can always talk and people will listen. :3 Peace
All the good vibes 4 u
(I didn't know about the reddit community of MDD, it's soo nice MDD it's getting so much attention)
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