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Post by Deleted on Nov 16, 2019 12:08:12 GMT
It is often presumptuous to believe, that you are the only person under the sun to experience something. I did, anyway and I am so glad I finally found the term to describe what is going on with me. Thank you all for building a place to open up!
I've been daydreaming a whole lot for as long as I can remember. Music is my constant companion. Beeing an only child who experienced isolation and mobbing in early school years (and later on, kids are mean!), it was a great escape. Now I am 30 years old, have a partner and a career, despite of my MADD. During hard times with loads of work, I had a way to cope. Especially when I was away during the week, spending my nights in hotel rooms for a project out of town. Beeing tired all the time, because "Why sleep?". While most people are like "How can you to that? Don't you miss your spouse and life at home?" I am more like "Hell, yes! I can be a piano-solist traveling the world!".
But I want to marry. I want to have kids. I want to enrich my relationships and be more tangible. I want to build new ones. I want to spend more time on ME, the actual me. I want to stop fading away every chance I get. I want to BE PRESENT, HERE AND NOW. I don't want to get angry with my spouse when the plannend "me-time" is crossed out by change of plans. I want to live. Most importantly: I want to stop beeing disappointed by irrational expectations and I want to stop missing out so much! Where would I be without MADD?
I hope, that by opening up (at least on this platform) I can start walking that difficult path one step at a time. I don't think I will ever fully stop daydreaming. But I want to stop looking forward to so freakin' much alone-time, isolation, and awkward feelings. Thank you for reading!
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Post by Sam on Nov 16, 2019 19:12:31 GMT
Welcome to the forum!
Your original belief that you were the only person in the world who experiences MD is actually pretty common. Knowledge of maladaptive daydreaming isn't very mainstream and because of that, not a lot of people know about it.
I can echo a lot of what you wrote, especially about what you want to be able to do.
Additionally, as you mentioned, its highly unlikely that you'll ever stop daydreaming completely. Daydreaming itself is a natural process that can benefit us in so many ways. The maladaptive portion, however, is reasonable to want to get rid of.
We hope to hear more from you!
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Post by bee on Nov 16, 2019 20:52:49 GMT
Hey reverie,
welcome to the forum, nice to meet you!
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Post by alvi on Nov 16, 2019 21:29:08 GMT
Welcome to the forum.
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