Post by loopy on Nov 19, 2019 13:31:07 GMT
Hi, I’m Lucy and I’m 14. I have had this habit for years and years, but within the past year it’s gotten worse. It’s gotten to a point where it’s ruining my social life and mental health. But I felt like if I came out to my parents or friends they would look at me like I have 6 heads. I want to let them go soooo bad but at the same time I don’t. The worlds in my head help me cope. I have had really bad depression for as long as I can remember. I have a lot of trouble socializing because I have really low self confidence and I think I will just end up embarrassing myself if I try to talk to people. So, i have made these elaborate worlds in my head. There, I have friends. Im talented. Im smart. I don’t even remember last time I had a depressive episode because my brain is so occupied with these worlds. But whenever I clip back in with reality, everything crashes down. I realize how 
and lonely I am. I get depressed and suicidal. I feel so ungrateful for having depression. I’m scared to come out to my parents with depression because they might feel like they aren’t doing enough. I feel like if I got help with my depression, that would stop the worlds and I could finally work on who I actually am. But at the same time, I don’t want to be who I really am, I want to be one of my characters of my worlds. They have everything I don’t have. Their lives are so much cooler and easier. I’ve been told by family and friends that I’m so much more distant than I used to be and I’m not like my old self. I knew there was something wrong with me mentally besides depression, but I couldn’t put my finger on it. And then I found an article about maladaptive daydreaming and its description matched what I had perfectly, and I don’t feel at all so alone. Thank you for reading this far, and please give any advice you have.
and lonely I am. I get depressed and suicidal. I feel so ungrateful for having depression. I’m scared to come out to my parents with depression because they might feel like they aren’t doing enough. I feel like if I got help with my depression, that would stop the worlds and I could finally work on who I actually am. But at the same time, I don’t want to be who I really am, I want to be one of my characters of my worlds. They have everything I don’t have. Their lives are so much cooler and easier. I’ve been told by family and friends that I’m so much more distant than I used to be and I’m not like my old self. I knew there was something wrong with me mentally besides depression, but I couldn’t put my finger on it. And then I found an article about maladaptive daydreaming and its description matched what I had perfectly, and I don’t feel at all so alone. Thank you for reading this far, and please give any advice you have.
