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Post by dreamermusings on Dec 19, 2019 19:50:46 GMT
I’m new and just thought I would introduce myself. I’m Ella, I’ve have been MDing for at least 9 year but discovered this term last year. I’m a 19 yr college student trying to find my place. I’ve used MD as a coping mechanism, but it’s also an obstacle that distracts me from living more in my real reality. Especially my academics. For as long as I can remember various things would trigger me to go off into my AU. I always thought it was just a normal daydream but now I’ve realized it’s more than that. Recently I’ve made more realizations that have explained why I am the way I am. I’ve been diagnosed with ADD and severe anxiety. Although I no doubt have anxiety, to be honest I think that my therapist diagnosed me with ADD because she didn’t understand MD. When I explained how I have an AU with characters and a whole world in my mind that I slip into, she claimed I was simply getting distracted and hence diagnosed me with ADD. For those who don’t know ADD is a type of ADHD that doesn't involve constant movement and fidgeting. I always felt like something was wrong with me. The more I learned about ADD, the more I felt like it wasn’t what I was going through. Leading to my discovery of MD!... In class I often would unnoticeably go into my MD, I don’t typically have any physical twitches so nobody notices. I simply seem really quiet and in my own head. Around the middle of high school, I noticed how much time I’ve spend daydreaming rather than in the real world. It’s hard to catch myself and control it. Before I understood what was happening to me I began this was all happening because I was so broken inside. I convinced that the reason I had a AU was because-I needed a fake reality to be happy in the real world that I couldn’t handle otherwise. Since I felt what my characters felt more than the real world and I was so confused and desperate, this explanation did not seem farfetched. ( Sorry if that was confusing! ) This clearly was my attempt at making sense out of something nobody could explain. I never realized that their may be others out there. I’m overjoyed to have found this community and look forward to being apart of it! Now I understand it’s not just me but there’s a whole community of MDers out there. I’m not broken, it’s just my approach to coping, which differs from my friends. It’s hard to stop MD and I think this forum will really help me out! So thanks!
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Post by Sam on Dec 19, 2019 20:53:51 GMT
Welcome to the forum, Ella! We're glad to have you here and we hope that this forum will be helpful to you too!
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Post by bee on Dec 20, 2019 6:57:18 GMT
Hey Ella,
welcome to the forum!
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Post by alvi on Dec 21, 2019 2:53:17 GMT
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