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Hi I'm Zoe Jan 3, 2020 3:02:14 GMT Sam likes this

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Post by zoethesquirrel on Jan 3, 2020 3:02:14 GMT

So I don't remember when I started exactly but I'm 18 now and I know that I'm pretty sure I have MDD.

I know that I'll spend at least 2 hours a day just in my head and have to fight to stay on task and not interact with my minds ideas. It gets really hard when I'm stressed to not interact with the ideas that I've made up. Especially when I have neat ideas on how to continue. I've been daydreaming I think since I was about 13 and I never really paid it much attention because it didn't interfere with my school work, but then I got addicted to it.

I got addicted to how it made me feel even when the scenarios got

, it felt like a relief to be able to control something when nothing else was going right.

As much as I love the feeling, I want to get better and I want to get through my days without it hanging over me like a shadow saying come play.

I've been dating this dude for half a year, we met through a friend, and he met me recently and I hid away my daydreams and I felt amazing. He left and I went right back to my daydreams. I never told him, I still haven't.

Little few facts about me:

Besides the fact that I'm 18, I grew up with cats so I love animals to bits. I game a lot even though my motor skills took awhile to get adjusted at first.

I know I have autism, ADHD, and Bipolar. I listen to pretty much any music I find, I watch mostly action packed stuff. I love horror and I'm always looking for something else to read(I never stopped being addicted to YA Fiction). I also really like peanut butter. You ever tried alligator?

Favorites of things.. never been too good at choosing. I'll try any anime except for spice of life, I love pretty much any type of video game genre you can think of, I don't think there's a genre of movie or music that I don't enjoy. I do prefer fiction to any other type of book.

I think I started daydreaming because.. I was immensely bullied and I was put on medication for my autism which was no bueno, so being inside my mind helped me a lot.

It let me get grounded but then its like i got stuck in being "grounded", and couldn't get out. I'd finally found a form of coping but it was intoxicating.

I could've graduated when I was 16 but I dropped out due to bullying and just not being able to cope with anything anymore.

I'm fighting to get my life back but its like my own brain doesn't want me to go. I don't know what to do because the family situation I'm in won't let me see the doctor on my own.

Not without a really stressful conversation and I really want to get this diagnosed so I know I'm not just crazy.

But my daydreams are strong, I can control when to bring them in a lot of the time, force it when I'm too anxious and need to stop my stress. I almost never do it without music, and dream anyone from bands and various YouTube people I watch, to fictional characters and big celebrities. Sometimes the daydreams give me ideas and they help with my stories I wanna write. But I really really want my mind to be able to not do daydreams 24/7 so I can go back to my life. Any tips? heh..

Sam
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Hi I'm Zoe Jan 3, 2020 5:42:19 GMT

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Post by Sam on Jan 3, 2020 5:42:19 GMT

Welcome to the forum!

Unfortunately, even if you could get to a psychologist, not many know about MD and there's no official diagnostic criteria because its not in the DSM, so its fairly unlikely you would actually get diagnosed. Pretty much everyone here is self-diagnosed, whether we see psychologists (usually for other issues) or not.

Mindfulness can help teach you to come back to the present moment, so it might be beneficial to try that. Personally, I don't think anything you do will ever help you long term unless you address the reason why you're daydreaming. So if you're daydreaming because you're stressed, you would need to lessen the stress if you can and find healthier coping mechanisms. Once you do that, it'll theoretically become easier to resist the urge to daydream.

Don't give up what you want most for what you want now.

bee Active Daydreamer	Hi I'm Zoe Jan 3, 2020 10:38:13 GMT PM Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by bee on Jan 3, 2020 10:38:13 GMT Hey zoethesquirrel, welcome to the forum!
	English is not my first language, sorry for mistakes.

alvi Administrator Senior Daydeamer	Hi I'm Zoe Jan 3, 2020 22:05:35 GMT PM Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by alvi on Jan 3, 2020 22:05:35 GMT Welcome to the forum x

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