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Post by newdaydreamer on Jan 4, 2020 8:52:27 GMT
Yep, I know it sounds absolutely ridiculous and stupid, childish I might say. I'm 15 but I daydream with that movie. My first every daydream I had was probably in 2018 or at the beginning of last year. I used to imagine myself replacing Quill. He wouldn't exist anymore, it was just me. And I said the same things he said, acted the same way he did and did the same stuff he did. I used to watch the movie and replace Quill's body with mine and try to imagine myself in his place living what he was living at that moment. I loved it because Quill had a very cheerful, brave and friendly personality. Everyone loved him and since I've always wanted to be like that I think that's the reason I chose him for my maladtive daydreaming. He represents the type of personality I've always wanted to have and the life style I always wanted to live. He went from planet to planet and fought with bravery anything that came along his way. He found the best friends anyone would ever wish for. That's another thing, I like imagining myself with the other Guardians being my best friends, the ones I never really had. And Gamora in this reality is a man (because I am a female version of Quill, and heterosexual, so it would make sense) and he has the body of Sebastian Stan, green like Gamora. It's all so weird, when I look for MVs of the Guardians of the Galaxy in YouTube I can spend HOURS going through the video and analizing every scene with me as Quill. I try to find the best MVs possible, the ones that are well edited and the music is good, and I imagine myself in that world. Of course Guardians of the Galaxy is OBVISOULY not the only thing I daydream about,but I wanted to make my first post about this because it has been the most recent. I pace around my room and talk to myself quietly so that my family doesn't hear me (but I think they've already noticed but haven't told me anything) imagining myself in those GOTG scenarios. I love being in that world, and when I am left alone in the house I put on my headphones and listen to music all the way up while I recreate scenes of me in that world, running or pacing around the house and talking to myself. It's like recreating an MV but physically. I know we all here experience this and that's why we're here, but I still feel like I'm not mentally sane. I heard MD happens because of a past trauma but actually my past was much better than my current present so I don't know what could have triggered this. I've been doing this since I was a little kid and for a certain time in my life it kinda stopped a little bit but then it flew back again. I think right now is a its highest climax point. I heard people lose sleep because of it, I've never suffered that so I guess it's not that bad. I also heard people sometimes can't help daydreaming even if they are at public places and try to do it secretly without anyone noticing, I mean places like malls, restaurants or whatever place packed with people. They move their mouths trying to speak softly but most of the time people do notice. I haven't gotten into that point either. I do daydream at my house where my family is but only when I'm alone, when I know they're not watching. I also wanted to add that, as everyone here I think, I do differentiate between reality and my daydreams, that's why thus disorder is not psychotic or related to schizophrenia. I don't think I'll get over it anytime soon, I feel like it's kinda getting stronger and I really don't know what to do. I can't go to therapy because I don't have the money and my parents would find out, and I don't want that. Please help.
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Post by Sam on Jan 4, 2020 21:42:55 GMT
While MD is often originally triggered by trauma, that's not always the case. Everyone daydreams, and children daydream even more. In the general population, as children get older, their daydreams are replaced by real life, such as replacing imaginary friends with real life ones. However, in people with MD, that never really happens. We just get stuck in that mindset from childhood. This is especially true of children who've been through trauma. A main theme is wanting to escape from real life. Sometimes its escaping from trauma but in others its just wanting to escape from other unpleasant things--mental illnesses, social awkwardness, being bullied, not doing well in school or having a chaotic home life, stuff like that.
As for therapy, even if you were able to go, its unlikely that your therapist would know about MD enough to be able to help with it specifically. If its caused or exacerbated by any of the reasons I listed above (or any other thing you might have a therapist help you with), then if you got help and treatment for that then your urge to daydream might lessen. But otherwise, until there's more research and common knowledge about MD, its unlikely that therapists will be able to help much.
There are innumerable tips and tricks for dealing with MD on the "help and research" board, as well as scattered around the forum in posts on other topics. I would definitely recommend you take a look around and see if anything might help. I would also recommend learning your triggers and figuring out why you rely on daydreaming so much. Even if it doesn't decrease your daydreaming amount much, I, personally, feel better now that I know more about my daydreaming and why it happens.
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Post by newdaydreamer on Jan 4, 2020 21:52:17 GMT
While MD is often originally triggered by trauma, that's not always the case. Everyone daydreams, and children daydream even more. In the general population, as children get older, their daydreams are replaced by real life, such as replacing imaginary friends with real life ones. However, in people with MD, that never really happens. We just get stuck in that mindset from childhood. This is especially true of children who've been through trauma. A main theme is wanting to escape from real life. Sometimes its escaping from trauma but in others its just wanting to escape from other unpleasant things--mental illnesses, social awkwardness, being bullied, not doing well in school or having a chaotic home life, stuff like that. As for therapy, even if you were able to go, its unlikely that your therapist would know about MD enough to be able to help with it specifically. If its caused or exacerbated by any of the reasons I listed above (or any other thing you might have a therapist help you with), then if you got help and treatment for that then your urge to daydream might lessen. But otherwise, until there's more research and common knowledge about MD, its unlikely that therapists will be able to help much. There are innumerable tips and tricks for dealing with MD on the "help and research" board, as well as scattered around the forum in posts on other topics. I would definitely recommend you take a look around and see if anything might help. I would also recommend learning your triggers and figuring out why you rely on daydreaming so much. Even if it doesn't decrease your daydreaming amount much, I, personally, feel better now that I know more about my daydreaming and why it happens. Thank you so much for your help. It really means a lot, I'm gonna start doing what you told me and list my triggers as well as the ways I can use to distract my mind from daydreaming.
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